Well Argent, it's been 3 years and 3 months ago. Similar to the deacon's story, we were teenage sweethearts, and married while I was in the Army. I met her somewhat earlier, but it was at her 16th birthday party, that we became an 'item'.
We had 60 years as man & wife, and had 2 sons, one of which we lost to an auto accident when he was but a teenager.
How do I handle it? Part just "grit my teeth and bear it', but the primary redeeming factor is the faith we shared. Without Jesus as a major part of our lives, it would be almost unbearable..but we have His promise of a reunion, when that time comes.
I think of TM7...how painful it must be , to have a loved one taken..simply because somebody didn't care..so unnecessary !
Another helpful factor, is having family nearby. My son and daughter-in-law, actually live right next door, and 2 of my 3 grandson's with their families, live just a few miles away so I see them often.
I did have a little pet dog which I had bought for my wife years ago, when the little pet dog she did have, died. About 2 weeks ago, when working around my home, I had to tear down his leisure yard, so I tied him out.
He had plenty of feed and water on that very hot day, but I was away for a few hours and he got his chain snagged, where he could get no shade or water...so I lost little Paco !
I guess I am like a wolf, since it is said, they mate solely to one for life. Since my wife's passing, some have suggested that I find another for company. I did renew acquaintance with an old friend who had lost her husband several years ago. She was always a very attractive lady, and the wife & I used to attend their gospel singing performances often.
She is still an attractive and pleasant lady, but that is not for me... so I guess I'll "sail my ship alone" until I am again with my beloved.
So you ask, "how do I handle it?" ...For me, Jesus is the answer.