Wow ! That's a tough call Country Boy.
With the hunt, you invest your money in great memories and bear steak.
The Hawkeye would be an investment, and the cash would be recoverable, maybe with a profit ?
I see three choices. (A) Check your battery for a gun you seldom use, and has little sentimental value, and sell it. Sure, you WILL kick yourself in the butt later, but you will have the Hawkeye and bear meat both.
(B) Kiss your Banker's butt and make payments. Or,
(C) Torture yourself until you decide which one you want most.
I can't spot an easy way out.