Thank you for getting back to us about your situation.
You had all of us worried here at Graybeards. This is kind of like being in a family. When others needed help they asked for assistance in prayers and no one has ever been turned down here that I know of. If you need Gods help, ask for it.
The only problem is that sometimes the way things turn out we want to question the choice of God. We must remember that he/she (God) has a plan for all of us. We may try to question, but the path is kind of decided for us. Some decisions are left to us and right now you are making a good choice by selecting time. Time is good in any relationship. It helps us grow fonder of a person when we miss them and sometimes we realize that maybe the situation was not that good by taking a little time away from it.
Don't forget us here Craig. And, don't do anything that you should know better. Suicide is not an option, it is a way out without facing the problem. When we face problems straight on and handle them we get stronger. We build character and strength. Face the problem, if you need help get it, if you need us here at GB, let us know.