Well folks, the news I haven’t shared with you before is that I have been fighting a battle with multiple cancers along with other serious health issues for a long time. One of the cancers has taken a sharp turn. I know my brothers here would have offered strong support, but they are my battles and ones that only I could fight and make the decisions on. So I’ve pretty much kept it to myself as I’m not one for the well wishes thing on these forums. I know they make you feel better, and confirm what I already know about the great folks on this forum, but when on the receiving end they make me feel uneasy and at a loss for words. And as those of you who have known me for a long time already know, I am seldom at a loss for words. LOL
Anyway, over the last couple of days I met with my doctors to go over the results of the lab reports from the biopsies of the tumors and other samples taken during surgeries I had on the 14th and on the 20th. The reports came back as the worst possible they could have, and with an added urgency I wasn't facing before. So I will have to make a quick decision whether to jump a plane to San Diego to a doctor who can do the additional surgery and reconstruction required and that even if successful will leave me with an even lower quality of life and the possibility of not being able to care for myself, along with a strong probably of even more surgeries to follow... or to just let nature take its course. I should have the answers to the rest of my long list of questions and all the details before the weekend and then will have to search my soul for the decision I'll have to make very soon.
Sounds like an easy decision to make for most people I know, but it’s not for me. With no one left in this world but my grown son, he's the one I have to consider more so than myself, and what will be the easiest on him. I have always stood on my own two feet and never been a burden on him, and simply will not become a burden on him now. He understands exactly how I feel, is and will continue to be supportive of my decision no matter which I choose. I hope all of you will be as well.
I truly do appreciate the friends I have been fortunate to make on the forum. But I have to make this call entirely on my own, so please let me do so. I am very busy now getting things in order but will try to check in when I need breaks from that and to let you know when I have made my decision whether I’ll still be able to check in on the forum or not.
Just thought the gang here might want to know why I may not be around the forum and may or may not be able to return to it again. I do appreciate all the banter I've shared here with you over the years and wish you all the very best.
Larry
