Fourbee,
your little country church sounds just fine to me. That is my favorite kind; would be nice to somehow attract more young people in since you need someone to pass this local church on to.
Certified ? just what does "certified" mean ? Man has put certain hurdles for a person led to preach. Ostensibly, these are put there to "weed out" the fakes and unqualifieds. Well, we know how well that does, what with the exposure of predators, funds forgers and pedophiles that have been uncovered. Surely as many of those have an advanced education as not. We need more preachers who have a "calling" rather than a "career".
Peter didn't attend Gallilee U. and John didn't matriculate at Jerusalem seminary and I doubt Matthew (the tax collector) would have been allowed in the Mount of Olives finishing school.
Yes, our Pastor has a Dr's degree but I would listen just as intently, had he been "raised from the sticks" and showed a natural intelligence and a heart for the things of God.
Mirage;
your passage; < Psalm 127:1> a very potent verse. I will offer my opinion even thought it is ONLY that. You can either listen or tell me I am full of sauerkraut !
It is just possible that you are being personally contacted by a "still, small voice" (1 Kings 19:12,13). You had a tough start as a youngster and had your britches scared off but the "law" side of God, without being sufficently nourished with the "love' side of God.
It does appear though that the Lord may well be drawing you to turn back to your Chrtistian roots. This is exactly what He ius talking about in that passage...read the whole 127th Psalm. He goes on to tell about how children are "an inheritance" from the Lord. In OT days, the term "house" also meant family or family name. You are starting a new "house"...He wants you to let Him have his way in helping you "build" it !
You may even laugh (as Sarah did) but this could well be God speaking to you as he did to young Samuel (1 Samuel 3:1-8). He may just have great things in mind for you or perhaps a child of yours. Your wife showed very positive traits, staying with you and marrying you despite your physical challenge.
Find a nearby church (denomination is not important) that preaches the Bible and the love of God as well as the justice of God..He may be ready to do great things..
Just my $.02..take it or junk it..
Mirage,; He just may have great things in store for you