You can be scared to death of going to prison and you can sit down and question your determination not to be victimized, but nothing else matters except your determination TO survive a violent encounter with a criminal or mentally deranged individual.
No matter what happens, when and if something happens, the law is gonna be all over you like stink on poo. Expect it! Make certain you have your lawyer's telephone number handy and do not say a thing - do not make so much as one statement without your lawyer present to advise you of your rights. Just because the cops read you your rights it doesn't mean you have the right to flap your lips. The one and only thing you should say is "I do not wish to make any statements until I have my attorney present".
Expect them to cuff you and stuff your fat ol butt into the back of a patrol car - and expect them to make it as uncomfortable as they possibly can, it's their job - expect tight cuffs and having the drivers seat all the way back to your knees - this accomplishes great discomfort without any effort on their part. Expect them to treat you like a criminal and to threaten you with life in jail and the loss of everything you hold dear. Expect them to ransack you home looking for other guns unless your attorney is at your front door to stop them, and do not expect them to give you back anything they have taken, legally or otherwise, until they are made to do so. Do not expect them to treat you with any compassion at all, or your possesions with any respect - they will probably hate you for 'doing their job' and act like it. Expect them to treat you with loathing disrespect when they finally hand you back your sidearm, especially if you inspect it before reloading it in front of their faces or expect them to tell you that you cannot posses a loaded firearm in a police station. I take it outside the door and reload it - they feel safer.
I love chasing around fun topics. I enjoy frank discussions, but I don't like to think of what I have to go through if forced to use a firearm again.