I must learn to use a sub-optimum loading
If you are going to put the effort in to learn anything, why not direct it in a way that will advance your learning? If you don't have the time to do it right ? when will you have the time to do it over?
I must confess though that I trust the scale less than
I do the fixed capacity of the dippers
Without a scale how do you know what the capacity of the dipper is? or how your technique will effect it. Get a scale that is easy to use. A simple balance beam and a set of check weights. This will help with confidence and perhaps make you feel better about the whole proses. No math involved--zero the scale on a level surface--check it with your check weights and you should be OK.
I feel comfortable reloading only when i have a
fixed load by volume that works well enough
Volumetric powder charges are best left to black powder loading--back to the scale--don't let it scare you. The lee scale is not the easiest to use--back to a simple balance beam, RCBS, Hornady, Lyman,
Redding.
I have the irrational belief that underload MAY hurt firearm or shooter, however overload can destroy a gun and obtain a posthumas Darwin award for the overconfident.
You are so correct, so why do something that will lean you more in the direction you do not want to go in. Back to the scale--that darn scale it keeps coming up Eh.
I would find a scale that I could afford and that is simple to use and sit with someone while you both looked over the directions. kick the tires, look under the hood and don't let it defeat you.
It is smaller than you and has less moving parts.