Slim - I've been absent for a while, and just found this, though I was very aware last spring. Old Pard, you've had a time and she is far, far better off than she was. and one day you will join her as you know the way, the truth and the light!! Grieving is a necessary part of healing. We can choose to mourn the loss, or celebrate the life. Remember her to all who cross your path. Let a smile grace your face in fond memory.
God Bless.