Adoption sure isn't easy or cheap. You hear alot about children no one wants but when you try to adopt where are they?
Lakota,
I think it is ok to question a walk with God, after all Thomas questioned Jesus. If Jesus was willing to take the time to deal with Thomas, He certainly will take the time to deal with you.
I know many here at GBO have gone through tough times, some will admit to thier faith being shaken. I know we all go through some tough times, they sure seem like hell. Sometimes we doubt or are shaken up. Lift up your head my brother your redemption draws near. Father God tells us if we will seek His face, He will heal our lands. Our lands include our families and our hearts. Fortunately God is more than able to provide for us. He is our provider, He is our healer.
He loves us more than anything. How fortunate we are to be called his children, we after all are called by His Name.