FWIW, some responses arent necessarily 'aimed' at the OP or another poster, but for others who may visit here on GBO and who may, or may not, be as well versed in the more subtle aspects of the shooting sports. I dont think being reminded that safety is good for us all, and the sport, is a bad thing.
CW, I feel your pain, too! There is hope, though, the effects may diminish over time. They did with me (and I wont bore you all with the details), and I truly hope it will for you. I, for one, will be glad to pitch out a prayer for you, my friend.