Anna,
I just found this thread and express my sympathies at you lost having lost my mother just five years ago. I came across part of this quote by Jonathan Edwards yesterday and hope that you find encouragement by his wishes toward his family.
Dear Lucy, it seems to me to be the will of God, that I must shortly leave you; therefore give my kindest love to my dear wife, and tell her that the uncommon union which as so long subsisted between us, has been of such a nature,as I trust is spiritual, and therefore will continue for ever. And I hope she will be supported under so great a trial and submit cheerfully to the will of God. And as to my children, you are now like to be left fatherless, which I hope will be an inducement to you all to seek a Father who will never fail you…
May Christ be near!
lc