Markus, I am sorry for your loss. When your parents pass on it is a very hard thing to accept. But if we understand that they are now in Heaven and there is no more pain, suffering, or the many problems that faced them here in this life, it does make things easier for us. My Dad died 23 years ago and my Mom has been gone almost 2 years. I miss them both and think about them all the time. But I know that when my time comes and I return to my FATHER in Heaven, I will find them there waiting for me. That is really something to look forward to. Again, you have my deepest sympathy at this time. Death is truly hardest on those who are left behind.