I cary my own handloads of Bluedot powder, a Rem. 88grn JHP, in Starline casses with a CCI primer. This is in a PPK copy that has shot over 1500 of these rounds with out the first malfunction of any kind. These reloads have reliably expanded in every substence I have tested them in except in hardwood planks.I won't list the exact powder charge, as it is a little over what is recomended, but it works well in my own pistol and I'm happy with it.
I have heard storys about not using reloads for personal defence, but I have never been able to find one documented case where the load made a diference in a case. One of the writters for Shooting times, Jim Wilson, has been trying for several years now to find a single documented case where the use of handloaded ammo made any diference in a case and has been unable to find one.
I don't cary the .380 all the time, when practicle, I cary something with a bit more punch, but when the weather and clothing dictate a smaller gun, that is my preference.
As for the "any gun that is with you" debate, let's see. Hummmm.......45acp home in dresser, .22lr in pocket......Unexpected need for a firearm..................Gess I got to go with "Whatever you got on you at the time." Given my choice, I'd much rather face a punk kid with a big caliber auto held sideways and not aimed, than an older experenced man with the same old worn 32-20 S&W pistol that he has shot for 30 years. But then, given my choise, if the gunfight is to be on 4th street at 9:00 pm, I won't be on 4th street at 9:00 pm, I'll be miles away from there.
I carry for the unexpected encounter, and I don't feel a bit under guned with my .380, or for that matter, with my 32H&R Mag when that is the gun in my waistband.
Greeenriver